I can remember when Dick called me dear, but have to be honest that I simply thought he had absentmindedly said it - like one calls someone by the wrong name. But when the day came for me to leave for Monterey, I was beginning to question some things. But to go back briefly to the event leading up to that - Dick told you how we were suddenly out of managers and the problem came up in Monterey. I always remember his saying - "Well it looks like I'm down to me or thee - and it aint going to be me!". This was in the morning, lunch time I headed down to the local motel and had a two-hour mini-training session on how to rent a room and run the front office! Fortunately I knew the bookkeeping system, so just needed to know how to manage the rest.
As told, Dick drove me to the airport and there was an outside area at the Santa Barbara airport in those days where one could go outside and see the planes leave. That's where Dick was so as we took off, I could look down and see him. I felt awful, which made me very confused. I hadn't seen John in almost two weeks and yet here I was sad at leaving Dick. After the motel bit, we returned to Santa Barbara for a few days and then John and I went to Sault Ste. Marie, Canada to be with his family for the holidays. I think my ex-mother-in-law picked up on a strain that even I didn't realize was there with John. She said something when we left about staying close which I didn't quite know where she was coming from. I do know that my conversation during that holiday was work, Mr. Topper, work, Mr. Topper.......
I have often been amazed how strong 'denial' can be and when we came back, routine took over with John gone, my working life being my whole being, until the infamous Palm Desert trip. Dick and John had arrived ahead of Sue, Katrina and I, and when we checked into the motel we were told that Mr. Topper and Mr. Marsh were in the restaurant. We walked over there and sure enough, across the restaurant sat Mr. Topper and Mr. Marsh (John). My heart leapt - but for the wrong person.
There are now words that can express the emotions, the pain, the turmoil when I got home. I didn't sleep that night, wept and wept, and made the decision to call John. Regardless of anything else, I could not disrespect him by staying with him when I loved another person. It was not an easy time for any of us. The rest is history. That was 44 years ago and both Sue and John went on to very happy marriages and I know that Dick and I have been the soul-mates that fate intended us to be.



Early the next morning (Sunday) the four of us drove there and put out that fire. My boss had given me the Monday off, so we were able to stay there overnight and then drove home on the Monday. What a honeymoon!!

Sue and Katrina had moved to Fresno, but we would try to get over there when possible and spend time with Katrina. She and I always got along well and I always remember being really touched when she said to me that she had a hard time thinking of me as a step-mother, but thought of me as the big sister she had always wanted.

No comments:
Post a Comment